Beware Surveillance

I'm positively screwed for tomorrow's test. And I thought it was supposed to be today. How SWELL. This morning I read the MSC's msn convo which was held when I was already in dreamland and concluded that waking up at 8.30am during the holidays with no test was seriously only what a brilliant mind would do. But the brilliant mind took a much-needed break at 10.30am and woke up again at 1.30pm. Hurhur.
My brother's laptop doesn't support MeL, that's why I couldn't check la.

Have read through Dominick (the textbook) 4 or 5 times. Read through, note that. Not all the chapters lah, if you're wondering. only 5 of them. If anything goes in, it'd be a wonder. Honestly, the stuff in the book are pretty interesting, despite its wordiness. Am trying to shift my mindset (make that self-hypnotise) to make 'studying' seem like recreational reading, which is far more effective for somebody who enjoys memory work as much as having being locked up in LT78 for lectures with a certain ATKH.

I don't wanna retake medisoc! Hopefully a miracle will happen tomorrow. Cos for now, my mind is as easily distracted as a 4-year-old kid. Spank my bum, anyone? Hurhur.
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After I'm done with graphcomm's assignment I shall design a new blog I guess. Whee.

I crashed a DC2

Before I begin..
FMS Erotikos, anybody, did I pass any of you Nurul's GD bib to pass it to her??? If yes, please do so!! If no, please check your junk!! PLEASE!! Urgh. Sorry ah Nurul!

Played tennis for the 2nd day in a row! Today Matthew was my partner, hurhur. Felt damn stressed playing alongside a national champion can. Whee, I'm positively hooked. It's gonna be a regular
session! Jules, tennis soon!!
Made my sister hit a few tennis balls. I think she has potential! Phew, finally. HAHA, I'm mean, yes - but she isn't really into sports to begin with. Unlike me and my bro. She is a number one slacker lah can. NO CCA in primary school!

Just sitting down here typing already makes perspiration form on my nose. Urgh, the sun. I've always thought that I would die in a car accident (jaywalking or speeding), and now I can add skin cancer to my list. Hurhur.
I have WHITE SPOTS on my arm!! RAHH. Shouldn't have dipped into the waters at sentosa after volleyball.

Don't ever wet yourself with cold water when you are still hot, that is only if you do not want to end up a leopard. Bah.

Test tomorrow!! Who's prepared to fail with me? :D

You Are a Peacemaker Soul

You strive to please others and compromise anyway you can. War or conflict bothers you, and you would do anything to keep the peace. You are a good mediator and a true negotiator. Sometimes you do too much, trying so hard to make people happy. While you keep the peace, you tend to be secretly judgmental. You lose respect for people who don't like to both give and take. On the flip side, you've got a graet sense of humor and wit. You're always dimplomatic and able to give good advice. Souls you are most compatible with: Warrior Soul, Hunter Soul and Visionary Soul

What Kind of Soul Are You?

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Took this from XB's blog. HAHA we are compatible! Yeah mano, he's my best male buddy. Teehee. (:

Jus you and Tea.

I still can't believe
that I fell for everything.

I still can't.

Friendster Bulletin for the FSV girl who passed away.

Hi pple..there is a collection of donations
for the
family of Vicki lin, FMS student, Ex
nan huarian & coperation pri, who passed
away on the
24th of Jan 2005. Her father has passed
away last
year and she leaves behind a 50 plus 60
year old
mother and a young brother that is only in
primary
school. The family is in need of support as
they are
now having financial difficulties. The
donation drive
details are as followed:

Venue: Outside the FMS Cage at Blk 52
(Ngee Ann
Polytechnic, School of Film and Media
Studies,
Level 3)
Dates: Monday and Tuesday (7th & 8th of
Feb)
Time: 11am - 1pm (for both days)

I hope everyone who has known Vicki or just
want
to help kindly come down.

If u want to repost this in your bulletin, by all
means. Thank You.
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I didn't know she was an ex-nanhuarian, which means that she's my senior. She looks pretty familiar, though..
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Sent my laptop to school for repair. They have to service the keyboard. Thank God there were no water stains, if not I'd have to pay $210 before GST!! Sigh. Which means I have to start planning my graphcomm assignment before hand, 'cos I can only get it back on Wednesday. Using my bro's lappie now. Good thing that he's in the army eh, hurhur.

Did a good 30 minutes of QT today. Read Philippians 1:1-26, and I realised how I should not wallow in my sadness, but in all things, give thanks! In his letter (Philippians was actually a letter Paul wrote), Paul did not mope even though he was imprisoned and was instead thanking God for his suffering. He certainly was living by what he said in Romans 8:28 - that God works for the good for the sake of those who love Him. This sentence spoke the most to me..

Phil 1:21 - "For to me to live is Christ, and to die is gain."

I closed with a prayer which lasted 15minutes, but seemed so short. Had to pray really hard for no distractions which have been constantly attacking my mind, and again I gave what has been encumbering me all to Him. Prayer items came out one after another, and I felt wonderful knowing that what I've told Him would be solely between the 2 of us, and even greater that I know that God will carry me through.
I feel much lighter, I do. (:

Keeping the faith!

Rock-a-bye Baileys

Alright! As I was ploughing through my shot list, I accidentally spilled a teeny-weeny bit o' water onto my keyboard, so I wiped it nice and hard like this: foia ew;a ;aj;fiaj laa'q rpl;okll

When I was done, I continued chatting with Evelyn Choo Ah Mah on MSN, who was attempting to chat with 2 or 3 people, surf, draw and listen to music at the same time. And it came out like this: a sit my kebord is stuk! i cnt pess kes (h) an (d) an man oters!!

Eve thought I typed like someone with a short tongue.

I'm gonna get my tongue cut if I don't get it repaired and get my graphcomm done. Haven't touched Medisoc either. Can someone slap me, prease.
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Filming went really smoothly. Fun!
Honour roll...
Keshia: Producer
Charmaine: Director
Evelyn: Assistant Director
Anne: Editor
Valerie: Soundwoman
Serene: Assistant Producer/editor
Benita: Camerawoman
Talents: Shawn, Nina and Anne

There were 2 shots with almost 20 takes, but it was not too tiring (I hope) 'cos the talents (Anne's bro and Valerie's friend) kept breaking into fits laughter at one point of time. Ha.
Anne's parents treated us to pizza from Peperoni Pizzas, slurrpp. I simply adore pepperoni. Hurhur. Wrapped up our last scene after dinner and did BLOOPERS. WAHAHA. Ah mas, homies and french transvestites, the horror. Annie's lil bro did a swell cameo, I must say. (:

It was a good time of Absolut Vanilla dé Mango and french toast (courtesy of my chef skills!) with Serene and Anne after the rest had left Anne's. Serene is Crazy! Teehee.

The 3 of us woke up at 945am, to Mr Rashid the Cage guy's call ("I'm looking for Bonita?"). So we overshot 2hours, which was 200 video bucks' penalty. Every group gets a budget of 2400 video bucks for this assignment, and we are supposed to limit ourselves to this. It is spent on borrowing of equipment and booking of editing rooms. Real cool, I say. Wheee. Really tired too, I say.
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Now, I MUST comprain about the Indian piano mama again. She tried to get 'free lessons' from me again. Could she be more discreet la?
She was telling me about her FANTABULOUS buys of Taka Jewelry (" It was $1200; then it became $230"), and the computer lessons? She said that she'll pay me $25 instead of $27. What a rip-off!! 2 DOLLARS ONLY also must cut from me la, hellooo!

I told her that I'm already charging dirt cheap for her daughter's lessons (and she isn't exactly the most musically-inclined girl in the world), but she claimed that she will not learn much in 1 hour of computer lessons. Everytime I try to ask her to get her daughter to PRACTISE, she shifts the conversation. Today it was about my one-sided ear stud. I wonder what will she think if I told her I was crooked.
I'm not lah, d'oh.

I tell you, she'll MAXIMISE the time (she tried to get me down 10 minutes earlier to her place today) and make sure she gets me cheap and value for money. I feel like a piece of lard.
I was too tired to patronise and smile and bargain nicely with her, so I just gave my blackest face and told her "Whatever, I'm very tired. Bye." - and walked out of the house.
Round 3 to her again, fine. Urgh!! Told my mom about it, and she commented, "You didn't know? ------- are all like that one lah."
There of course are exceptions, but, for now.. BAH!

Man, she's the STINGIEST, most MISERLY-EST and most THICK-SKINNED person I have ever come across in my entire life. I think I've said that before, and I'll say it again.

I CANNOT STAND IT AHH!! ;(

Just like a twig you snap my heart
Put the veins back together again if you can
Find them - once shattered, now smithereened to dust
engulfed by the sea of tears;
the remaining fragments
polarized by surmounting fears
crashing south, tearing as it searches for
the end of that ambivalent abyss.
Back and forth throws each shard
up a double-edged sword,
resurfacing unrecognisable, and thrust down
into netherland.
Scream.
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Filming's tomorrow.
Gotta get rid of all these excess baggage weighing me down.
Who's gonna volunteer help me remove them?
They're chained to my flesh.

God, please.

Conflict the heart and mind with sorrow-filled angst
When love and hate collide.
What do you get?

Tell me how do I put it in words.
Can't stop the pain inside.

I'm still hurting.

TEEHEE.

:D :D :D

I'm so happy! :D
(Read: post below)

And I'm all set for Cambodiaaaaaaa..... TEEHEE.
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Today, I played pool with a Filipino named Shane.
They are supposed to be naturals at it. And I guess it's true :(
But I held my ground! Wahaha.
Super stressful can.
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Did you know that there's such a word as 'hie'?
Yeah the act cute 'hie'. It means 'to hasten'.

That's all for today's one-liner post!
Wheee.
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edit: Heard that a FSV 3rd-year student committed suicide yesterday. =/

For the first time in my entire life ever since I first had my first sip at 6 (show off! LOL), I feel kinda whoozy after drinking. My 2nd uncle made me finish up this bottle of 13% alcohol Korean Ginseng Wine, saying that it was good for my health.. and ordered another 2 bottles for my mama. Things look shaky to me, but I still can think straight. The more I drink, the more sober I become actually.
Sigh. But thinking on the bright side...

Wheee. Tomorrow, say byebye to my ancient 8210!! I think I'll be getting my dream phone, courtesy of my 2nd auntie. WHEE again! Say byebye too, to me trying to cut short the conversation or sudden cutting-offs during calls. I like the 8210 still, but it really fails me. So, its goodbye to you...

BYEBYE!
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GAH I can't believe it. I have to go to school tomorrow. ATKH!!! URGH. Taken up all my valid 'leaves' already, so I have no choice. Alright, I'm really sleepy now.

BYEBYE!

How did the phrase, 'Nanny nanny poo poo' come about?

After much (not) brain-racking from me and Eve, we realised...

Irritating Kid runs to point A and poos: Nanny! I poo! I poo!
Nanny: You naughty rascal!

Irritating Kid runs to point B and poos: Nanny nanny! I poo again!
Nanny: You naughty rascal!

Irritating Kid runs to point C and poos: Nanny Nanny! I poo poo!!
Nanny, tired from running about: You.. naughty... rascal...!

Irritating Kid runs to point D and points at his teeth: Nanny Nanny! Poo Poo!!
He then gives her a big gobsmack on her cheek.

Nanny dies of a heart attack.

The weather was fantastic yesterday! I'm ultra burnt now. Used suntan instead of sunblock, and now I'm furiously slathering on Tea Tree Oil cream on my shoulders which are radiating heat. Sand was so fhot, I feel like some roast duck delicacy from China. I think my feet soles are quite heat-resistant, though. It must be the thick skin. Teehee.

Siloso was moderately crowded, surprisingly, judging from the super long queues of people at the bus interchange. Man, our YF should start sports clubs! We are positively crazy over volleyball, tennis, soccer, captain's ball, ultimate frisbee, rugby, skateboarding and running. Tennis tomorrow evening with a few of them too. Yay.

Shall slack at home the whole day. Oh fishes&Co., there's a freaking test next week for Medisoc!
I HATE MEMORY WORK. Rah, Bah, Blah, Pui, Gah.

I just realised that I can see the city skyline from my room. The stupid Ngee Ann staff houses are blocking the UOB tower though. Curses.
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Thought of the day - There is no such thing as doing something without a purpose.
Have you ever done something which you felt was without a purpose?
Well, you did something without a purpose, and you didn't intend to do it on purpose. So there you have it! Your purpose - to do something without a purpose!
Which technically speaking, discredits this figure of speech. It can not stand!

I need to pangsai now. Have a good day, mates!
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The handphone of my dreams is HERE. The Nokia 7270. Free me from the gripes of having my handphone dying on me less than 30 seconds into calls, and I promise to be your slave forever. PLEASE!

Yes. Support EVE's band, ARPEE (aka Rendezvous Pointe)!!!
Support Local Musik!!!

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RAHH I did a post but Blogger Killed it!

So it will be short and sweet.

I really look forward to every Midnight Supper Club meetings. Yes, we struck again!
Me, Eve, Juan and XB.
Relaxation has become a rarity, but I'm glad that it still exists. (:
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Watched Elektra with the brother today. Predictable plot made splashy, pretty good job on the cinematography. Hot Jennifer Garner (looks like Julia Roberts from some angles), Hot Baddie!! My brother felt that it was a waste of his money though. My take - just leave your brains behind. Entertainment came from the action, pace and cinematography.
3 out of 5 stars.
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Town with Liz&Co., annemarielu joined us. New slippers! At least I know that I won't risk dying by slipping and falling, as for now.
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It's Sentosa tomorrow with the church youths. Whee. No more sleeves! Need to get myself back in shape this hols. Term break up next, but not much of one with the Locvid assignment breathing down our necks. Rahh.

Miss many parts of my life though. Ohwell. =/

At 8.10am yesterday, I hopped onto a cab in NP at canteen 2. There was no way I was gonna fight my way up bleepbleepbleephill without tearing my ligaments.
The price of trying to be on time for ATKH's Lecture? $3.40.
$1 surcharge for peak hour rates. WHEE.
The lecture started at 8.25am. Great. When I reached one minute later, only half the lecture theatre was filled. There goes my moneeeeeeh.
Another barrage of verbal vomit, but this time I had my lappie with me. NFSU2 it was!
Teehee. Burn cosidem, burn. Tansenga too.
"I'm sorry, but I'm easily insulted."

I think I'm getting rheumatism. If not, arthritis. Was walking up the stairs in the TV Cage, when my right ankle gave up on me suddenly ): And I'm only 1/4 done with my life! Ngahh.

Soccer was shiok today. I really enjoy playing soccer.. But Eve asked me if I'd want to join IVP for basketball with her. And the school Band needs players too. ARGH.

FINALLY talked to Romeolo today after sooooooooo long! Heehee. Super high after that. Teeheehee. I got FMS stickers!

Yeah I'm rambling.
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I have met the STINGIEST person in my ENTIRE 18 years. The piano mama wants me to teach her Microsoft Office, and I'll get paid 10 bucks for one hour. But the laptop didn't have Office, so I ended up teaching her how to use the internet and even got her an email account.
Guess what?
I DIDN'T GET PAID. Reason? She only wanted to learn Office. She's a Cheapo lah can! I was super tired, I spoke till my throat was super dry (and I still had to ask for water), and I was so patient. Think she will not be able to remember how to get into Hotmail by now. Didn't want to haggle either, 'cos I was too tired and it's quite embarrassing to have your request turned down just like that. I didn't mind helping her for free - if she wasn't so Stingy. Gah.

Hmph, I'm insulted. Hurhur.
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The brother's home from BMT. How was it? BORING.
Why?
A Brigadier General's son was in his platoon (A company has 200 people, 4 platoons).
Apparently their bunks were side-by-side. HAHA. I shall use my charm to become the next minister's wife. And I shall banish all stingy and useless-teachers to Pulau Ubin and overtake the President.

I'm SUPERDUPERUBER shagged. Goodnight.

In light of recent happenings:
What goes round, comes round.

I certainly do not need moral contradictions to be accepted.
Nor to make myself feel up there by magnifying others' flaws.
Take mine as it is, or stay far, far, away. Who is perfect? No one.

Do not let yourself fall into temptation;
but in all things let God take first place.

Everyone knows what is right and what is wrong.
It is the person's character which decides the next move.

Checkmate.
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Guilt? Indignance? Innocent (good for you)?
Take this as a reminder.
I'm constantly reminding myself, too.

LOOK AT NURUL'S GLAMMEST POSE EVER. :DD
*tWiSt!* *hEeHeE!*

Okay, I admit that I tip-toed. Happy? I'm short. Happy?
Happy. Ngahh.
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Naivete gave that little girl
A dozen tulips in the fall of April
Black and white; Rocked into Gray.
She is gone, but the stains stay.

The Daft Touch

Tennis yesterday left me with 'sleeves'. Polo T-shirt tan line lah. Urgh, need to go get a proper tan again soon. The weather was great though, and 8 of us played to our heart's content in NP's tennis courts. I've full-fledged condo facilities at my disposal behind right my house man, whee. (:
2 hours only, and my face is RED.
It's gonna be regular tennis sessions for me. Starting to get the hang of the game already.. Muahaha.
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Took a cab to town to catch Juan's performance with RAFE at Cine, which was supposed to be at 6pm. I was still at home at 5.55pm lah. Mr. Cabby was so nice to ask me which route I'd want to take, so I asked him to take the fastest. Funny though it took him only 15mins (I ran from Heerens to Cine halfway cos of a jam), it cost me 9 Bucks!! And a normal trip should cost me only at most $8! Yeah 1 dollar only, but it means that he took 2 more kilos then it usually takes. Bah.
There went my dinner. ):

So when I arrived at 6.15pm (the cab was going at 100km/h), I expected to see RAFE already into their last song. What I saw was another band playing, John Molina and the Kruegger Band. John Molina is FOT, and so is the drummer - till his wife stepped out. Rahh. He did really good covers of Dare You to Move and VERTIGO. Whee. The band is damn good!! Their really tight.. Professionals man! Oh yeah, so what happened to RAFE?
It wasn't their turn yet lah. They started playing at 6.45pm! URGH. The performance was okay, though it ain't their best. But ohwell, what matters is that they enjoyed themselves, which they looked like they did (:

Electrico was up next, and they were a blast! I say, if you closed your eyes, you'd NEVER imagine they were local. Am super duper impressed, even since the time I first caught them at Bar None last October. Cine hasn't been so happening in a while man.

Split from Nurul, Priya, Jules and her 2 friends, and chionged down to the Esplanade for Stan's birthday celeb. Watched Man Utd VS Liverpool after that. 1-0 to Man Utd!! YAY. It was a super entertaining match can. But Man Utd was pretty rough. And the Spurs VS Chelsea match thereafter impressed me. Spurs' playing was real slick, one which I hadn't seen before from them since the last time I chased soccer. Real cool.
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Today after church I met up with the ABCdE for our location video project at NYDC Heerens. Heehee. Digressed quite a bit.. Heh. Had fun! WE TOOK NEOPRINTS, HAHA.
Char broke her 'promise' not to shop again, no thanks to me this time. But it was a GOOD buy alright! Teehee.

School's picking up the pace. Major projects are a-coming!
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Thanks for the words of encouragement left. Really appreciate them.. (:

Today is the day I received my official conferral of post of Care Group Leader. (:
Why not the music ministry?
I guess everybody who knows me feels that I'll be walking down the line of music when it comes to service; that line is fixed for the years to come.

2004, as the year went by, many events changed my perspective. I had been thinking through my direction since the beginning of last year already. Was it actually so simple? All I had to do was to play drums in church for the rest of my life. That's it?
But somehow, I didn't feel the fufillment after playing for one year regularly. I enjoyed it, I worshipped. Still, I felt something missing.

Then YF camp came, for one. Though I was the Worship in-charge, I felt a greater need for the youths' lives - being an encourager in both their spiritual and physical lives. Music is but a tool to aid the congregation to worship and praise God. Yes, it is a form of adoration. But at the end of the day... What can music do if the spiritual lives are not there?

I'm glad to be undertaking this big responsibility now. And here in my blog, on the WWW, I promise that I will do my utmost best for His Glory and for the Youths. I'm not the perfect leader, so please feel free to criticise me whenever I do wrong.
One can never stop learning.
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Alright, for once, I shall open up in this blog.

I am not happy.
I still have some stuff to settle within myself, and it is hard for me to be.. Me. Whatever 'me' was. Everything is just not rosy-posy to me now, and I know that I'm trying too hard to keep up that certain 'entertainment value' of mine. My perceived 'ideal self'. So all that comes out is crap and rubbish at a level which is really quite off. And it only makes me seem as a goondoidioticstupidlameoutofpoint try-hard. Then again, it's not me to be all gloomy and such in front of people.
Every action breeds a response; every word breeds feedback.
I don't want to affect others with unnecessary moods, because things will surely get really awkward. I need to make a more conscious effort to watch my actions. For now, I aren't caring much perhaps because I'm dreary. And things get to me twice as fast. And builds up thrice as much. I throw it over my shoulder, yet I pull the muscles on my arm. Get it?

I've given it all to God, yes. But I still am very very human. He is strong, yet I am weak. When is He going to end it all? I don't know. I'm trusting Him still though.

But for now, I'm just really tired.
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Anyways, Happy Birthday Stanley! May you keep growing in the Lord! (:

Rushing out my debate SCRIPT now. Every debator who hears of this will cry. NO sane debate ever taken place uses SCRIPTS. That is, until ATKH appeared out of nowhere, armed with years of experience under her belt and a degree in IdunowhatbutitsaVANCOUVERdegree and a faulty microphone pointed at our heads, ordered a SCRIPTED DEBATE. Whee.

Ahem..... CASE:
There is sufficient representation of marginalized or minority groups in the media today.
(OPPOSITION)

I assure you that this will be a GOOD one with the opposition and proposition stuck in 2 separate, beautiful worlds, oblivious to each other's moans of grief.

She just wants us to write an essay la, but is trying to make it sound more splashy and interesting. Debate sIAxX! So cOoLzZz n0hX!!*

Medisoc could be so much more of a fun thing if not for her.

Aiyah.

Everybody's changing

and I don't feel

the same.

Just came back from getting the joints on my leg de-jointed, and re-placed. It was surprisingly almost painless, but I feel weird. My legs feel foreign now.
Hopefully them ankle and knee joints will give me less problems. It is only the muscles left.

Snapped awake at 8.45am today. I happen to have super deeeeep sleeps nowadays. I didn't even hear my handphone alarm go off can. Urgh. It was too late for soccer, and I can't play anyway with my legs half-dead. Decided to own up to Gopi.. Hope I got away with it. I hate skipping S&W!! Urgh. The only chance I get to exercise and learn some skills. Rahh.

Faizal's Vespa hated me, so I couldn't get my ride up the bleepbleepbleephill. :( Stupid NP. They should have just flattened the land or dug out that darned hill to reclaim more land for tiny Singapore la. Climbing stairs alone was enough to make my legs cry, save them slopes.
Reached class a cool 20 minutes late, and I hobbled in. MKT (yeah he's born into MarKeTing) was soooo nice and understanding, I wanna hug him with a ten-foot-pole.
"You're 20 minutes late, and you still take your time to walk to your seat. And you don't even know how to apologise to your lecturer!"


I made sure he saw my ankle-guard.

Was super pissed during the lesson though, but he did try be nice after that. Think he's some pms-y guy, or he just wants to be fierce to gain control of the class. The test was okay la. Marketing.. What's new? Ah well. Marketing's fun la. . . .... .. . .. Teehee.

The Indian piano mama wants me to teach her how to use Microsoft Office atop teaching her daughter piano. I asked for a round figure of 30bucks for BOTH, and I increase the girl's lesson to 1hr (she's quite slow) - but she said 27 bucks. Wah what's with the 3 bucks!? She stays in a Condo, her older daughter wears real-looking Von Dutch stuff and nice clothes, so what's 3 buckeroos! Urgh. She simply doesn't want to increase my pay. Shouldn't have been so nice to always overrun the time. I don't mind actually, I'm just miffed that she actually makes use of my generosity!
If not for my desperation for some bucks, I'd have rejected her offer. Argh. Money or pride. Money, this time.
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Would like to share this with you guys from my QT last night.. (:

Taken from Zelos, the bible study material from Sunday School:

7. Be glad God doesn't give maps of the future.

"Do you sometimes wish God would give you a map that outlines each step of your life?
Instead, His will is revealed step-by-step. Some older friends of mine pointed out the drawback of maps.

These friends started a small company years ago. Gradually it grew, and it's now worth millions. My friends talk about the unexpectedness of od's guidance. They admit,' If God had shown us years ago how our company would grow, we would have been like Moses and told God we couldn't handle that responsibility!'

As we walk with God, He stretches us. If we knew ahead of time what kind of pain or challenges we would face, we might turn and run. Or we might anticipate tomorrow so much that we'd miss God's instructions today."
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NOTE!

To all involved in the Bible Study Group:
THIS FRIDAY, 3pm - at my church. It is beside the Bukit Timah Market. Give me a call if you don't know how to get there alright. SMS or something to confirm attendance ASAP. Thanks!!

I'm glad that we'll be growing spiritually together in the Lord (:

FMS Erotikos! (Leslie, Khid not in pic)
We needed to live up to our name. There's one more picture which I think shouldn't be seen at all... Anne.. Hmmm. :D


Before the match: The E, A and B. Leslie is the guy who seems like he's kissing Eve. HAHA.
Hanni is the one sticking her butt out, and FiFi and Nurul look like they're posing for some Calvin Klein underwear ad.


After the match.. Sticky, smelly but happy: The girls! Clockwise, L-R: - Me (top left), Eve, Anne, Jay, Fifi, Nurul and Juliana Stacy!

NP is the most UN-handicap-friendly place in Singapore.
Tuesdays are the days where I get to hike the school compound back and forth FOUR times, and build a connection with the grand old campus. Not when my knee is giving me problems, bah. Limping has activated my ankles to begin stinging, too. Urgh.
The worst thing in the world to be, is to be immobile :( My S&W tomorrow how?! I wanna play soccer!!
I'd rather sit through ATKH classes for the rest of my life if I could exchange it for mobility.

Speaking of which, today's lecture lasted a fruitful 15 minutes. YES, I knew as much as I would eat a rotten apple. No nutrition, just vomit. Verbal vomit. What supposed to be a lecture at 8.45am turned out to be one at 9am, and by 9.15am it was wrapped up with some students still entering the lecture theatre, clueless. AND THEY COULD SIGN THEIR ATTENDANCE STILL. What sia! I was SIX MINUTES late for the last last tutorial which LESS THAN HALF THE CLASS attended, and I WAS MARKED ABSENT. How sweeeet. I stayed on without much of a fight when I could have just walked out with a black face. Yet she just looked at me as though I was faking it and marked me as absent. So much for being submissive. NGAHHH.

You know, I wonder why she doesn't ever go back and think in retrospect WHY we show sooo much interest. It takes 2 hands to clap, and she seems as though she's using the hand to clap herself in the butt.
No use listening already. Attendance is for pure (pronounced 'pjuer'; 18 years of bad pronunciations, the horror!!!) show, and I need to rely on myself to study this module - a pre-requisite for 3 other modules in year 2 which requires nothing much, just TONS of memory work and understanding. Nothing much.

Speech comm was kinda crappy for me. I couldn't much remember my outline I'd written for Cordelia, thoughts were s c a tt e re d, and I basically did an ah-ha-no-link introduction. Whee. Tried not to mumble this time, and hoho, I think it was clear that it was crap. Teehee.
It was quite freaky to see how most of us happened to choose issues which were close to our hearts. Mine was School Discipline. Heh. Anne's was about body piercing (how apt!), Char's about co-ed schools and girls' schools (she has had experience in both), Yihan on traffic jams (he's always caught in one), Syed with bitching (hurr.) etc etc. Guess I could have thought more though. Ohwell.

Should I join NP band again? Apparently the band is doing better with a new conductor, who is the conductor of the SAF 'B' Band. Or should I join the women's soccer team? I want to keep fit, play some team sport before I never get to again, or should I not join anything? =__

Nobody is perfect, but some people should learn how to remove that plank in their eye before they point out others', or behave all upright and such.

FMS Erotiko

We all played our hearts and muscles out today. Won 1, lost 2. The 2nd game was crap, but we learnt from our mistake and still lost the last.
But the last game was tough. We were up against the NP Netball club, and we lost 6-2 I think. Not without a GOOD fight, though! I think we were their best opponents for the day. Good job everyone! :D
I bet they fixed our team against theirs. Get us out earlier. Hmph.

But ah, I think that they should limit the number of netball club members per team. It really isn't much of a CARNIVAL, should they send their school players to join in and trash (duh) all the other teams who don't have any netball training/experience.

Nurul, you were a GREAT imparter of your skills! Thanks for tahan-ing all our rubbish and crapping around during training. Can't help it, we're a happy bunch! :D
And (Nurul included la duh) Jay, Fifi, Eve, Anne, Jules, Isaac and Leslie - you guys are really good players too can. I enjoyed myself a lot, and am duly impressed. Very impressed (: With more training we could win the Netball Club lor!
We have a fraction of a chance to get into the semis. Fraction. Hopefully so.

Played some good basketball after the competition with a mix of FSV and MCM people. Funny I still had energy.. I guess the exercise gotten from training has kinda revived some of my stamina, whee. Exercised the most in a loooooooong while, and I feel my knees dying.
Can't really stand up without having to feel the pull in my knees. Perhaps I pulled the muscles around them. Argh. Maybe tomorrow I'll need a wheelchair (finally) and you guys can push me down that bleepbleepbleephill of NP's.

School's getting mundane-y, academically-wise. It's more script-reading again tomorrow. Argh.

Here are the fixtures!!

5.45pm: Court 2, Game 2 - The Versatile VS FMS Erotikas

6.30pm: Court 2, Game 5 - Xiao Pang VS FMS Erotikas

7.00pm: Court 1, Game 7 - Wateva VS FMS Erotikas

YES. And if we get in the semis and finals, it will be held on Wednesday!

SUPER PSYCHED. COME AND SUPPORT US ALRIGHT!!

Heehee.
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Towned yesterday with Isaac for the first time (it was good quality time :)), and then it was dinner with some of the YF people at Cafe Cartel. I say, I'm blowing away my money to all the F&B outlets in Singapore.
I NEED TO SAVE!!!!! Argh. I absolutely hate being broke, especially when I could have saved. 20 bucks in a day because of FOOD?!
Think wonderfully pungent globs of stuff which come out of your butt in 6 hours. Rahh.

Got to catch up personally with a few out-of-touch close friends recently, and I'm really glad that they still do open up and share about many things, and that I could be an encourager to them. It hurts me the most to see my friends question God's will and ways, but yet it brings me great joy to be there for them - spiritually and emotionally - and most importantly, the effort pays off (:
I thank God for the wisdom He has given me, and I pray that I will further be a good testimonial for Him!

Netball is NOT Basketball. Netball is NOT Basketball. Netball is NOT Basketball. Netball is NOT Basketball. Netball is NOT Basketball. Netball is NOT Basketball. Netball is NOT Basketball. Netball is NOT Basketball. Netball is NOT Basketball. Netball is NOT Basketball. Netball is NOT Basketball.

Netball isn't a game where you can slack abit and watch the others do the work. Set pieces are different. Not basketball. Urgh I need to stop lagging.

Okay, off to school for netball AGAIN. Got lots more to learn still, rahh.

FMS Erotiko!

Yesterday's

Soccer evolved into a mini-Pilates (pronounced pee-LAH-tehs, not PI-lurts) session due rain. Sprawling on the floor at the grandstands with people jumping over us for just half-an-hour was more strenous than the 45 minute soccer match we played last week. Even the guys couldn't take much of it, ha. My abdomen now hurts when I cough, and I can feel the streeeetch on my back.

Then it was netbola training after a BORING SAB class, which had me (Jules you're not alone okay) getting shot down by MKT. When I didn't mean what he thought I meant. Ya ya. So much for trying to butter him up last week. Old men have old brains. He's 49, and in semi-retirement can.

So netbola training was pretty good. I had a ball (punpunpun) of a time dancing with Jay, who was faking me updownleftright, and Jules had a ball of a time too, getting freaked and irritated by Eve who was marking her. Hurhur. And that's a good thing!! Whee. We can do it alright!

Had dinner at Al-Ameen's, Anne Eve Jules XB Isaac Fifi Nurul (edit_ sorry Nuus!) and me. Had a good time, though I think I'm really getting more and more rubbish/crap/lame by the day. Argh. My cheese egg prata was not neutralised this time 'cos I didn't order milo dinosaur, and today I diarrhoea-ed TWICE. One at home, one in um, Tekong. Yeah, Pulau Tekong. The Tekong Diarrhoea was super jialat la. Thank goodness no one else was in the toilet when I was doing my business. My shit was going off like the rifles I watched in the stupid propaganda video. Serious. It was literally going 'pfflaaaart', and I could only listen in helplessness. Super embarrassing can.

The enlistment.

The brother touched down from Korea at 1030pm last night. Today he goes into the army at 230pm.
He had his head shaved at the barbers' downstairs upon seniors' advice, and we went to steal my sister out of school. The system against unwanted loiterers is pretty strict now, but my dad gets special treatment. Hurhur. Anyway, the poor girl had her name called over the PA system twice for the day (even I hadn't had this kind of treatment before), and she was more pissed over the fact that she had to run up and down 7 storeys for the 5th time of the day in school than what was actually going on.

Tekong was okay. Save the fact that not everyone gets a chance to go in, it was pretty boring. After the metal detector and security checks, all the enlistees were forced to tuck in their shirts. Ha. Took the ferry there.
The jetty was propaganda of its own man, with 'Count on me Singapore' straining in the background as we walked down the bridge. Seemed more like a funeral procession to me. Welcome to National Slavery.
The conditions there are quite alright too. At one point, the TAF club-esque ones happened to be all in a bunch as we walked pass them, and it was quite amazing to see them exercise and march. A few of them were totally not in sync, but they weren't caught. Seemed quite lax actually. Or perhaps it was just a show - you know how parents are like.

The swearing-in was funny. Fell asleep during the Commander In-charge's welcome address, marvelled at the video's nicey nice-s, smirked at the oath-taking (at the last line, all the enlistees raised their voices and went all patrotic-y. I wonder if my brother did the same. Maybe they were asked to do so, 'cos the coincidence is just too... suspicious.), sang the national anthem for the first time in a almost year. Mumbled, more like.

I only pray that during this time, my brother will renew his faith in God. Slipped into his luggage his (untouched) Purpose Driven Life, my church's Bible walkthrough in a year and a christian CD. No burnt ones allowed, so I had to risk my original copy. As long as it does help.

Here are some pictures (didn't dare to go around tourist-ing in case I got arrested) and be lucky you get to see how Tekong looks like a giant holiday resort, only more of aesthetics than comfort.



____And, taken right before we left:____


A new chapter; take flight.
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It is no more about personal issues; I have lost respect for you.

School

started December the 6th. What's today's date? January the 4th.
Almost a month already, but I haven't much a clue what I've been learning so far.

I remembered the existence of a Graphic Communications' assignment only 2 days before the deadline and lectures are about throwing sandals down the stairs; I knew zilch about the 'debate' for MediSoc and the lectures are about nothing in particular (poor script-reading maybe); I totally forgot about SAB's presentation till 2 days before SAB class; I've been dreaming through Speech Communications - Clean forgot about today's 2 1/2 minute speech thing till just before class; and Location Video - I haven't listened much either (New World (re)Corders and sudden outbursts, shudder).
Sports And Wellness, ahh. That's a different thing. It's sports, you know. No books, no notes, no nothing.
But argh,
WHAT ON EARTH AM I DOING?!?!?!

I seriously, seriously, seeee-ri-ous-ly need to snap out of this heck-care attitude already. Now I understand why people end up retaking modules and how EASY it is to achieve this major accomplishment. It DOESN'T require a finger to be lifted. Cool sia! The driest subjects are taught by the driest lecturers (I'm sorry, but screw the credentials), and the aura everyone exludes during these particular lectures and tutorials are simply... theraputic. For upright meditation, that is. Thank the wonderfully cool weather, too.

Okay. Not everyone has the gift to teach. The previous semester's lecturers were all too wonderful already, and I think this caused us to have this halo effect (did I use it correctly?), thinking that all FMS lecturers are vuuun-dahful. I really would like to think that way, but I repeat myself - having some Ph.D or all the experience in the world doesn't necessarily mean that you can teach (full scripts and uncertain answers, for crying out loud!). See, you could be dumb -but talking. Wheeheehee. But it's sadly true.

From the miser me inside: I paid 2K for this?? And I still need to print my own notes?! And pay for all the other materials?! Rahh. Tell me about the 'heavily subsidised' claim. The original school fee is 10K CAN? What if the government didn't subsidise the fees? We still have to print our own notes and buy our own textbooks right? Laptop too? It's no difference from a university then - but all we get is a diploma which simply screams 'cheap labour'. Not a degree.

Funnily enough, I am much happier than before. Maybe that explains the ranting over nothing.

Ah, the knowledge I am privy to.

Tomorrow, it's 2 down.
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My new old primary school building (just down the road from school) was oh-so-perfect, till I saw some of the little girls walking out of the school in uniform WITH SLEEVES. 100 years of tradition, GONE!! (The original uniform was sleeveless with collar. So kawaii can.)
The pain. Apparently they are abolishing the old uniform. Complained to my dad, but he simply replied, "But they didn't change the colour." Wow, so loyal! Same colour siahhx! So cool!
So much for being a traditionalist, Mr. Treasurer.

My mom said, "See? That is what you get when you have a spinster running the school. So you better not remain single, because unmarried and old women all end up like that."

Yes, ma.
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FMS Erotika (disclaimer: I did NOT choose the name), our very own Netball Team consisting of Cap'n Nurul, Jules, Eve, Anne, Fifi, Jay, Me, Leslie, Isaac and Khid, had our first training session yesterday. We had the attack VS defense, and we all did very good jobs.
Though Anne, Eve and Khid were not there, I must say that I'm very impressed! Jay and Nuus are goooood. Jules, Isaac, Les and Fifi are madness too. Whee. I'm very optimistic about our team! Nurul, you can stop worrying about the national/school players whatever. Don't care la. We'll just do our best alright!
Training tomorrow again, this time full attendance I hope.

Gnarly! HA.

It's so sad.. So sad.

Suicide bombing kills 23 in Iraq

BAGHDAD -

Insurgents exposed the vulnerability of Iraq's security forces
again on Sunday, killing at least 23 National Guardsmen and 10 others in
separate attacks with elections just weeks away- The Straits Times Interactive, 3 Jan 2005


Tsunami victims add up to 150,000. The miniscule island of Singapore could jolly well be drowned by one of those. Then we could be the next Atlantis.

"3 As he sat on the Mount of Olives, the disciples came to him privately, saying, "Tell us, when will this be, and what will be the sign of your coming and of the close of the age?" 4 And Jesus answered them, "Take heed that no one leads you astray. 5 For many will come in my name, saying, 'I am the Christ,' and they will lead many astray. 6 And you will hear of wars and rumors of wars; see that you are not alarmed; for this must take place, but the end is not yet. 7 For nation will rise against nation, and kingdom against kingdom, and there will be famines and earthquakes in various places: 8 all this is but the beginning of the birth-pangs. 9 "Then they will deliver you up to tribulation, and put you to death; and you will be hated by all nations for my name's sake. 10 And then many will fall away, and betray one another, and hate one another. 11 And many false prophets will arise and lead many astray. 12 And because wickedness is multiplied, most men's love will grow cold. 13 But he who endures to the end will be saved. 14 And this gospel of the kingdom will be preached throughout the whole world, as a testimony to all nations; and then the end will come. 15 "So when you see the desolating sacrilege spoken of by the prophet Daniel, standing in the holy place (let the reader understand), 16 then let those who are in Judea flee to the mountains; 17 let him who is on the housetop not go down to take what is in his house; 18 and let him who is in the field not turn back to take his mantle. 19 And alas for those who are with child and for those who give suck in those days! 20 Pray that your flight may not be in winter or on a sabbath. 21 For then there will be great tribulation, such as has not been from the beginning of the world until now, no, and never will be. 22 And if those days had not been shortened, no human being would be saved; but for the sake of the elect those days will be shortened. 23 Then if any one says to you, 'Lo, here is the Christ!' or 'There he is!' do not believe it. 24 For false Christs and false prophets will arise and show great signs and wonders, so as to lead astray, if possible, even the elect. 25 Lo, I have told you beforehand. 26 So, if they say to you, 'Lo, he is in the wilderness,' do not go out; if they say, 'Lo, he is in the inner rooms,' do not believe it."
-Matthew 24:3-26

Cliched as it always sounds, but the end of the world IS nigh.

"42 Watch therefore, for you do not know on what day your Lord is coming."

But what is to 'watch'?

To 'watch', is to be prepared for the Lord's 2nd coming. By being living testimonies as Christians, spreading the gospel, encouraging each other to stay strong in Christ and not conform to the ways of the world.

The first sermon of the year was 'Greatness in God's eyes'. A powerful and strong message which pulled the strings of the heart - to kick of the start of the year. All of us tend to hanker after what is on earth; and with this terrestial power, we forget the divine One in control of it all.
What is being great in man's eyes? Nothing. These are all but ephemeral. Only Heaven is eternal. It is so easy, though, to talk the walk and not walk the talk. That is why we constantly need to seek His will and His ways.
What is a man of God who doesn't love nourishing himself with God's word?
A plant without roots. A simple prod - and it falls over.

Oh Lord, I pray for the nations; I pray for myself.

I have seen the light.

2005

This signifies...

251204
130404
081004

The end.

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My new year resolutions this time are pretty simple.
But they aren't no simple task.

1. To grow in the Lord.
2. To do my utmost best in serving the Lord.
3. To be a good daughter, sister, friend and encourager.
4. To study hard and perhaps find my area of interest.
5. To not fall anymore.

I hope no more relationship rubbish will come my way.
Even I don't have the guts to say that I'm matured enough to go into one.
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Went for my uncle's company Dinner & Dance instead of Watchnite at church 'cos I didn't think anyone would be going, judging from last year's mediocre attendance from the youths. Turns out that half the YF was there.
Anyhow, I wasn't really in the mood for celebration. Neither were most of my relatives, in light of the tsunami disaster.
Ironically, the Indian workers in my uncle's company were having a helluva time - we had to endure sudden shrill whistles coming from the tables nearby out of the blue when everybody's eating.

Food at The Legends@Fort Canning Country Club was good, ranging from soup wonderfully swimming with crabmeat and sharks' fin to Ostrich Meat. I came across the best tofu in my life last night, too. Whee.
Red wine ruled the night! My family won a VCD player this time. I want a digicam!! Urgh. Took photos of the beeeeautiful country club's exterior with my cousin and the GM's kids with my uncle's Panasonic DMCfz3b digicam. The GM's son looks sooo angmoh (I think their mom's Thai) and is super goodlooking/cute la! He's primary 5, the same as my sis. If only I can matchmake them next time. When they are grown up. Heh heh heh.

K.O.ed at 2am, woke up today at 1.30pm. Think I'll be slacking at home the whole day.. Supper with Eve and Juan and XB tonight! The supperclub strikes back! And its orchestra in church tomorrow at 8am..Rahh.
Alright, Blessed New Year everyone again!